Dear Loco,

Dear Loco, Happy birthday month, nugget. This year has more transformation than I wanted for myself, though somewhere I suppose I did want it. It was everything and maybe even more than I set out for when I started this. There were moments I missed you like a phantom limb twitching. And there were days…

My sweet Loco, Today – Aishwarya, Nins, Azur and I – set off to Dandeganahalli dam to spread the last litter I had of you. I didn’t have your ashes so this was what I kept behind. It was such a lovely day of picnicking with Hummus and chai. I didn’t know a grey sky…

Dear Loco, I am grasping at a wisdom so deeply rooted in me, it fails to take hold and shrinks back to a place only it knows. The wisdom that I am always loved and held by the entire universe. Sometimes I just know the encumbrance of a strong desire to be held. I fight…

Dear Loco, I’ve been wondering what to say because I’m happy to let so many thoughts be passing, such as they are. So, today, I’ll quote from an eloquent letter from April 29th, year unknown: When we first started talking – I thought – this girl is trying too hard – she won’t be able…

Dear Loco, Everybody thought this was a bad idea – cutting off all contact from everybody I know. And it was nice to have worried friends, and it is nice to have confirmation this was the right choice. Modern life will offer you so many opportunities to tap out of having your own back, of…

Dear Loco, Azur and I would talk about greatness a lot. Long before that I was a girl with a book under my desk, reading about the great things people had done with their lives. I read about Eli Wiezel, Lance Armstrong and so many more.I left that home, telling myself I was destined for…

Dear Loco, 🙂 For the first time, in a really long time, I am happy. Truly happy, and content with myself. This morning I just started crying from how happy I felt, like I couldn’t even believe it. Like I’ll keep the promise I kept to you of living my life in testament to yours.…

Dear Loco, As I was in the experience of seeing snakes, and taking a bike ride on my own – I kept wondering about, instead of being in the moment, how I was going to condense this experience for another. Aside from the fact that I really wanted to share this experience, I was also…

Dear Loco, I was in nature, and then I was reading about it at the hotel. I was randomly curious about packs of dogs and discovered this:https://www.reddit.com/r/todayilearned/comments/6uaub3/til_the_dr_who_popularised_the_idea_of_alpha_and/I, then, spent some time watching that Live cam feed of the Wolf Research Center, and I liked the idea of whispering to them and imagining they could hear…

Dear Loco, I kept thinking what I’d say in this post about my adventures as I was having them, and then it came to me naturally once I got back home. It’s funny because I had to remind myself to stay in the moment. I always thought love was transactional, but it’s not! The part…